Kiss The Head Light Goodnight

antininjagang @ 2009-06-07T21:15:00

2009-06-08T02:16:25Z

i don't know if i will be able to handle this. but i have no other choice, at least for now. why do some people have to be instigators?

work in a few

2009-06-01T11:49:14Z

So I woke this morning, mind you I didn't get a bit of sleep last night tossing and turning and what not, feeling terribly ill. I'm sneezing, coughing, I'm achy and I have a sore throat. I hope I make it through this week. But of course something like this would happen to me the day i have to start a new job, where my voice and enthusiasm are essential. No partying for me this week Marchelle, I'm gonna rest all week, hopefully I will feel better for my test at the end of the week. Although I might go have wine and cuddle with a cute boy... Big maybe tho, depending on how I feel in a few days. I could really go for some sleep right night, and some R & R (rest and relaxation).

Shoot me now!

sweet jesus!

2009-06-01T01:50:27Z

i had no idea live journal even still existed... anyway, updates. i moved to chicago just recently, finding it rather exhausting. but i start my job tomorrow, so hopefully it will regulate my life. the transit is starting to make sense, but i still can't make sense of it, if that makes sense? i just got distracted. seriously! people still read these? i just hope i make it here.

antininjagang @ 2007-03-05T14:50:00

2007-03-05T19:52:08Z

hey hey hey. what's cookin good lookin?

if you wanna hangout this weekend, get at me

james

antininjagang @ 2007-02-22T02:41:00

2007-02-22T07:44:37Z

so i am feeling kind of drained from working and not really seeing much from it.

i miss old friends and the days of yore... i mean the old days. sorry

~~i had a pleasant conversation with someone from my most recent past, it was ok. we didn't argue about how it isn't his fault that i am stuck here when i never said it was.... sill fucker~~

i am off to bed to repeat my day of fun in the sun, or work. whatever

..

2007-02-16T04:49:47Z

Here's the day you hoped would never come
Don’t feed me violence, just run with me
Through rows of speeding cars
The paper cuts, the cheating lovers
The coffee’s never strong enough
I know you think it’s more than just bad luck

There, there, baby
It’s just text book stuff
It’s in the ABC of growing up
Now, now, darlin’
Oh don’t lose your head
'Cause none of us were angels
And you know I love you, yeah

Sleeping pills, no sleeping dogs lie never
Far enough away
Glistening in the cold sweat of guilt
I’ve watched you slowly winding down for years
You can’t keep on like this
Now is as bad of time as any

There, there, baby
It’s just text book stuff
It’s in the ABC of growing up
Now, now, darlin’
Oh don’t kill yourself
'Cause none of us were angels
And you know I love you, yeah

It’s okay by me
It’s okay by me
It’s okay by me
It was a long time ago

It’s okay by me
It’s okay by me
It’s okay by me
It was a long time ago

There, there, baby
It’s just text book stuff
It’s in the ABC of growing up
Now, now, darlin’
Oh don’t lose your head
'Cause none of us were angels
And you know I love you, yeah

There, there, baby
It’s just text book stuff
It’s in the ABC of growing up
Now, now, darlin’
Oh, don’t kill yourself
'Cause none of us were angels
And you know I love you, yeah

AARON!

2007-02-12T08:23:19Z

i know no one wants to fucking hear about this...... but i also don't care.... i am so fucking heartbroken! why do people have to fucking be so charming, and then be so devious! all i can fucking do now is drink.... and hopefully one day, it won't take me a fucking year to get over him.... because he ruined my life the second year that i have known him. my life is so fucking stupid right now..... i need to get away. not around his fucking stupid ass. but i can't seem to get away from him... he is everywhere. and he is always on my mind.

antininjagang @ 2007-02-01T03:37:00

2007-02-01T08:39:23Z

i want to take someone on a date.... male or female... who wants to go on a date with james?!

antininjagang @ 2007-01-28T01:00:00

2007-01-28T06:02:13Z

i may be slightly drunk, but i think my life is still looking up, even though i can't move as i want to. it is just a minor set back. i will still be able to move, just not for a while. sorry marchelle, it will be a little bit longer than expected.

FUCK!

2007-01-26T20:32:53Z

so i am officially fucked... i am now 2500 dollars in debt, and i have no money saved up. i will no longer be able to move to chicago... but maybe things will look up? idk. i sure hope so. if anyone feels bad (lol, yeah), feel free to send a donation (again, LOL!). i thought my life was finally falling into place.

antininjagang @ 2007-01-16T05:06:00

2007-01-16T10:17:47Z

man, lately, things have been very hectic. work work work. i just wish i had to even access my life. i am trying to save money for my move in a few months, but it is proving to be hard. but i am trying none the less. something will work out for me.
i wish i had someone i could call a love. i have been feeling more and more lately that i am very lonely. and i keep finding myself looking through my phonebook and almost calling all my ex's. i need to find a person that will help me not so much forget, but jut let go of my past. and i know i shouldn't rely on a person to help me let go. but it just seems so much easier. but it is really hard when a love of your life tells you he misses you, and then continues to talk to you like a friend. that to me is extremely hard. i want so badly for him to say " i love you, be with me " i hate thinking like this, because it is destructive. i just need to get over him.
so... i had a seizure new years eve. spent the night in sparrow hospital. i now owe around or above 1700 dollars to ambulance and emergency room fees. but luckily i had some good friends there to help me... thank you so much. that night you guys were there for me meant alot.
i am so tired that i can't even type anymore... so goodnight.

antininjagang @ 2006-08-01T00:08:00

2006-08-01T04:13:20Z

so mott is fucking me over...... they still haven't registered me for classes.... go figure.... bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch.

i got to see steph the other day... so exciting. we had fun, and such. we both felt like shit for the most part, but fun none the less.
got to hangout with beau, not too sure how anyone felt about him. but what can i do. opinions are the only thing in life that is true. whether you want to listen or not. and actions are louder than words. so i may be right.

i have had no energy as of late.... i need to get healthy again, and start exercising. death is how i feel. shitty

antininjagang @ 2006-06-19T23:42:00

2006-06-20T03:46:32Z

so excited.... i am finally going to college. i may or may not start in sept. but if i don't get a spot in sept, i will fer sure get a spot in jan.

stephane is coming to live with me. fun times will ensue like the old days. except fernando won't be over all the time... but i heart that girl. another girl i heart is marchelle(spelling), and yet another girl. sabrina, i will miss her soooooo much.. and crystal, you need to come see me soon. libby, you as well. lauren, come see me, and i will return my ransom ( fight club ).

another exciting note, i should be making money by next wed. hopefully.

take me on a date, and buy me cute things.

<3james

antininjagang @ 2006-05-30T03:38:00

2006-05-30T07:42:45Z

i am not sure if you will read this. but i am still not over you. you know who you are. if you read this i am umconditionally sorry.it has been so long and you may still hate me, and never want to be with me. but i hope you still know that i am sorry. kassie knows about my sorriness. anyway, i hope you read this. i still love you. but you may not care.

hate me all you want, but i willalways love you.
i know you never wanted to be hurt again, but why did you never give me a second chance?
aaron....... i love you

fun taxes will be had tomorrow morning

2006-05-30T05:51:48Z

so basically i have realized that i have been wanting to use this more lately........

long island iced teas sneak up on you. i have never had any other than tonight. they are so good, and yet they are the devil. drunk i am. and i don't hate it. what you know about that? yeah i know all about that

Fun Taxes

2006-05-29T16:31:11Z

What?! People still use these? That is intense.

So what has everyone been up to? I haven't talked to most of you in a minute. I will most definitly see most of you at Kasie's prom. Fun taxes will most likely be had the morning after.

antininjagang @ 2006-04-09T22:01:00

2006-04-09T22:05:16Z

freee money! what!? i'm down where do i sign up?

so basically i'm bored, and yesterday was the worst day ever.... i'm not even joking! i don't even want to go into details, because there are just way to many variables of why yesterday made me want to cry from frustration.

and i realized that i'm not even sure if i want a boyfriend, i spend all this time alone wanting a boyfriend, and when i find one, i know it won't last. so why am i setting ymself up for dissapointment? and i am also sick of boys onlywanting to have sex with me! FUCK OFF! i don't want your nasty asses anywhere near me. i have not been about casual sex in forever, and i'm not about to start for some fucking slut.

and that is all from this guy

antininjagang @ 2006-04-06T16:27:00

2006-04-06T20:29:33Z

i just don't understand how people can have such a strong effect on someone....

someone please elaborate

antininjagang @ 2006-04-05T17:46:00

2006-04-05T21:46:39Z

i deleted my myspace account........

antininjagang @ 2006-04-05T17:22:00

2006-04-05T21:24:36Z

i am soooo exhausted.... but i haven't done anything strenious to bring on this tiredness

anyone wanna cuddle? i'm really good at it

antininjagang @ 2006-03-29T19:32:00

2006-03-30T00:35:07Z

let us go back to the cute days...... i wish i had a time machine to go back to those days, when we were all good friends, and things were good. cuteness would commence

i was going through pics of us. and they were cute..... i have never seen anything so cute

antininjagang @ 2006-03-25T13:23:00

2006-03-25T18:25:57Z

so another of my friends might be moving to ohio.... woo hoo. fuck ohio. if this event takes place.. i will miss you gayle.

antininjagang @ 2006-03-05T14:26:00

2006-03-05T19:33:20Z

As we grow up,
we learn that even the one person
that wasn't supposed to ever let you down,
probably will.
You will have your heart broken
probably more than once
and it's harder every time
You'll break hearts too
so remember how it felt when yours was broken
You'll fight with your best friend
You'll blame a new love
for things an old one did
You'll cry because time is passing too fast
and you'll eventually lose someone you love
So take too many pictures
laugh too much
and love like you've never been hurt
because every sixty seconds you spend upset
is a minute of happiness you'll never get back

extremely true... i was looking through bio's and ran across this. but here's the glitch. every 60 seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back. hmmmmm, if you are upset,and you are acting happy, you aren't truely happy. it's just a diguise from the truth. so why kid yourself? so i submit this to you.every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll get back. my reasoning behind this is. when you are upset, all you want is people to leave you alone. so the more you aren't around people, the faster you can be happy. self theropy. live by these words.... lol

antininjagang @ 2006-03-04T02:36:00

2006-03-04T07:38:48Z

not goignt olie... i hurt really bad. but honestly, i am glad for you... but the next time you know i am going to be where you are. consider my feelings maybe, and don't PDA around. you mnow, i am getting over you, and i have been taking baby stpes, but when i see you makeout in front of me, it doesn't feel good. i'm not mad or anything, but i just ask you to consider my feelings maybe.

antininjagang @ 2006-03-03T22:40:00

2006-03-03T22:41:36Z

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